Patience is a Virtue

I am not patient and I never have been. Truthfully, I really don't want to be. That sounds terrible I know. But at this point in my life it is a bit ridiculous to tell me to be patient.
Clearly, Laney is not here yet. In fact, I feel like she is camping out as long as possible and is definetely going to be like Matthew. 40 weeks is just not fun, I feel handicapped and clumsier than ever(although I still wear my red happy shoes with heels!). I want her out and in my arms so badly.

The reason I am dishing all this, I had my 39 week appointment this morning and it just didn't go so well. Actually, I measured 39 weeks last week so it was kind of like my 40 week appointment. They really thought I would have had her last week. Please pray that my body goes into labor on it's own and knows what to do! The doctor seemed concern because I am not dilated (but 70% effaced!) and he really won't induce unless dilated at least a cm. Once I go past my "official" due date we can talk about it but he seemed concerned I may have to have a c section if she keeps getting bigger. Or I could schedule that now, but I'd like to try labor.

At the end of the day, I just want Laney here safe and sound and to meet this life I have in my belly! I know that is the most important thing and all of this won't matter in time. I just had in my head the way I wanted labor to go and from the way things are looking I was silly to think I could play a part in this madness.

Pray that I have strenght and courage and I suppose patience. I do need it badly today and for however much longer.....until then.....